Missing you more now than ever. Christmas is over and done with, we never got to spend a single one with you but it would’ve been nice to hear your annual rants about it all, about how you’re going to sly some money our way and you’d text us with the biggest stories ever saying how much you loved us and how proud you are. Been speaking to Tracey more than anyone, everyone else is heartbroken still to this day. Just 2month on! Making a promise to you now, that as soon as I’ve got my wheels I’ll make more of an effort with the whole family. Not all of us see eye to eye, but does anyone really? So as soon as I’m on the roads, I’ll be through to see you in Kelly’s and keep in touch properly with the family! It’s a shame it’s took a tragedy to bring us all together. As much as we were alike, and never seen eye to eye.. we can both agree it wasn’t us. It was your partner that was in the way most of the time. When we were alone we got along like a house on fire. Spoke about the same things, loved sharing stories and everything. It was her negativity that killed the relationships, and it was our part too. I’m still hoping to wake up most days, it’s hard staying strong for everyone else but never having an outlet yourself Dad, you’d want us to be strong. God knows I’m trying! I haven’t had a single breaking point yet and I’m dreading the day it comes properly. Got a couple photos of you printed out, so you can go on my desk next to Mam and the family photo of all your kids at the Gloucester. Would’ve loved one proper photo of us together, but I’ve got memories of you. I’ll cherish those forever. I love you Dad, and I’m sorry still to this day that I never told you that properly.